Yea,BAD DAY indeed.
To most of my friend,I may appear to be the happy-go-lucky type of person.But deep down in my heart,I know that is not the truth.I hate failures.I hate the feelings when everything is out of control.Sometimes I refuse to try out something new,because I am afraid.What if people laugh at me if I failed?What if I don't get a good outcome? I might disappoint those around me,those who have their expectation on me.And the most important thing is,I am afraid that I might let myself down.
Yea I know,weird right?But that's me.I can't help it,although this is such a stupid and foolish attitude.Because of this attitude,I missed so many good things of of my life.I am so busy gusessing what people think about me,until I forgot to enjoy my life.I have decided that I'm not gonna let this stupid attitude ruin my life.I am so tired of live under other's expectation for 18 years.After today,I will try not to force myself to live up to other's expectation,but I will rather live up to God's will.I believe if I leave my life in god's hand,he will choose the best path for me.
Because he is my savior,and he love me very much.
"Look at the birds of the air; they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father keeps feeding them. Are you not worth much more than they?Matthew 6:26
